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Name: daphne
Birthday: 3/27/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: books, pb and j sandwiches, purses, meditation, trampolines, camp pike, hiking, yoga, going to shows, gourmet coffee, art art art art, coloring books, the cronicles of narnia, harry potter, art therapy, blue jeans, keeping in touch with old friends, having pinics in the park, big ass sunglasses, my ranch, tickle fights, ftln, climbing trees, chic fil a, summitting 14ers, black nail polish, colorado sunrises, texas sunsets, colorado sunsets, theme parties, clouds, unique beauty, drives in the country, kissing, jump rope, old pictures of people I love,
Expertise: art art art art art
Occupation: art
Industry: art
Message: message me
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AIM:  sunkistsomething
Member Since:
9/30/2004
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| I wish I could get some peace with this. But still I burst into tears without warning. I am still upset with the situation. I don't know what I believe regarding the afterlife. I miss Tim and I wish I had been with more of our friends last weekend for the trip down there. Like KayCee, Kenley, Nate or Ben. Not friends of friends. Not girls who didn't know Tim.
Not Chad.
Not people who I don't feel safe with.
I felt safe with Tim. | | |
| I miss the way Tim said bye. "k...Bbbye."
I miss the way he would say little black bears. He used the kidden voice and squinch up really small
I miss the way we were always together.
I miss when we made videos on my cheap camera with no sound, and put music to them.
I miss Tim's hugs, even though he was sometimes awkward about them, I always felt such love.
I miss that stance Tim did. He looked like a proud 7 year old, hands on his hips, chest out.
I miss Tim singing to every song that came on in the car, whether he knew it or not.
I miss the crazy plans we would hatch, whether it was to become undercover superheros, or to trick Jon into joining APO.
I miss our bits. Tim and I could be so sarcastic that people believed all the stories, no matter how outlandish.
I miss everything about Tim. I miss everything about my friends and the wonderful year that was sophomore year.
Everything changed after that year. And after this year. It will never be the same. It might be as good in other ways, but it will never be like that. I don't think I'll ever feel as free, as loved, as passionate, and as silly.
I just feel blessed to have had it. To have the most beautiful memories. To always remember. | | |
| In 2005 Tim did this for me on Myspace.
my name: Aubrey
Where did we meet: in a concentration camp. i mean band camp.
Take a stab at my middle name: nell
How long have you known me: uhm like a year and a half i think
When is the last time that we saw each other: last night at the burgendy road concert
Do I smoke:certain things....lol
Do I drink:yes. and quite well if i do say so myself
Do I curse: yes but your trying to stop though. this your not doing very good at all...its funny though.
Do I believe in God: yes :D
When is my birthday:march 23?
What was your first impression of upon meeting me: that girl must be autistic. that would be funny if her name was aubrey cuz i could call her autistic aubrey.
Color of my eyes: ok theyre like this weird color. theres not even a name for it
Do I have any siblings: yes two. laaauren and jake.
What's one of my favorite things to do: drink? or go camping? or both perhaps?
Am I funny: no your more the serious type
Do you remember one of the first things I said to you: "hey."? maybe. i dont remember...i bet you dont remember either.
What's my favorite type of music: indie i'd say. or right now id say musicals.
What is the best feature about me: oh that butt of yours. yes.
Am I shy or outgoing: uhm id have to say outgoing.
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules: this is a hard question to ask for you...i dont know what to asnswer.
Do I have any special talents: yes you have a killer death look. and i mean that literaly.
Would you consider me a friend/good friend: YES:) oh or is this a multiple choice question? do we pick? ok a very good friend.
Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what): k. punk, hippie, nerdy, crazy, insane, autistic,..
Have you ever seen me cry: yea :(
If I had broccoli stuck in my teeth would you tell me: oh man, i would laugh, and then yes i would tell you about it.
Have you ever hugged me: yes, hmm but i dont think i have in a while. i miss those aubrey hugs. lets hug.
Do you miss me...do you think i miss you:well i saw you last night...lol
What is my favorite food: uhm..i dont know...salad? or a sandwich? thats usually what you eat at teh caf.
Have you ever had a crush on me (honestly): nope. never...lol jk...yes, for quite some time
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If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:AUTISTIC AUBREY!
What's your favorite memory of me: oh wow..uhm i cant think of just one favorite. hmm there were those 1 and a half trips to san anantonio lol.
What is my worst habit: inviting too many poeple to camp. "hey yea you wanna come campling with us?? bring your friends! cuz you know, we have an unlimmited suply of tents and stuff" lol
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring: screw food, we'd need an ipod. and possibly some sort of solar charger.
I thought I would return the gesture.
my name: Timothy Lawrence Fliegel
Where did we meet: On the first day of band camp.
Take a stab at my middle name: Trinity.... or Lawrence.
How long have you known me: Since 2004. 6 years. It doesn't seem that long ago.
When is the last time that we saw each other: In August in front of Jon's house. We talked for hours, reminiscing about the past and philosophizing about the future
Did I smoke: yes you did.
Did I drink: dude you could get drunk in like 10 minutes. Once at Kim's party Jon and I had been taking jello shots for a hour. You showed up, took a couple of shots and were suddenly Gymnastics Tim. You always did gymnastics when you got drunk. aaand got drunk much faster than me and Jon who had been trying for so long! i think it was all in your mindset.
Did I curse: not as much as the rest of us
Did I believe in God: you did in the beginning. But we all went through a lot of enlightening experiences that changed our perspectives on all that. I'm sure that now you know the truth. Which is something that we were always striving to find.
When is my birthday: January 15
What was your first impression of upon meeting me: I have certain people, a very select few that before I meet them I see them and decide I want to be their friend. You were one of them. You were there in your random t shirt and your chucks and your bootcut jeans and shaggy hair, being laid back and yet a tad bit awkward, and I thought: I want to be HIS friend. So I can't remember the exact impression... But I was hella impressed.
Color of my eyes: They're the same color as mine. They always changed with mood or clothing. I remember when our private lesson teacher was trying to set us up she goes "did you know that one of Tim's eyes and green and one is blue?!" I suppose they were in that lesson. I had never met anyone with the same weird eyes as me.
Did I have any siblings: You are survived by Lucy age 20, and Conrad age 14. Same as mine.
What was one of my favorite things to do: you loved to go to shows. and to the quarry. and to just experience as much as possible.
Was I funny: we used to laugh together all the time.
Do you remember one of the first things I said to you: a polite hello. You were always so polite. I loved that about you.
What was my favorite type of music: you loved many things, but you had a love for gangster rap that surprised us all. "WHATCHU THINK I SOLD UM ALL!?"
What is the best feature about me: those eyes. and the hair when you let me cut it. hahaha
Was I shy or outgoing: You were shy in the beginning in the same way I was, making snide comments about Dr. Neal under your breath. But as we began to see how funny one another were we couldn't help but talk more.
Was I a rebel or did I follow the rules: When you got to college it was like you and rules got a divorce.
Did I have any special talents: singing. and piano. and the french horn. and being book smart. and sarcasm. and creating halloween costumes.... One in particular.
Would you consider me a friend/good friend: Tim, you were my best friend for a long time. Up until the end I still considered you one of my closest friends. We knew each other better than a lot of people ever will.
Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what): You couldn't have been labeled.
Have you ever seen me cry: yes. a couple of times.
Have you ever hugged me: We hugged so many times. and for a while I couldn't stand it because you did this weird sigh when we could hug and I found it awkward. But as I grew to know you, I grew to love it. haha
Do you miss me...do you think i miss you: Tim I miss you all the time. I did when you were alive, I always told stories about you to people who didn't know you. I told of our crazy adventures, you me and KayCee. But now I miss you so much more than I ever thought possible. I hope you don't miss me much. I hope you're having great adventures on your own, looking towards a future none of us can even fathom, so you don't have time to miss us much.
What was my favorite food: I don't know! All I can remember is us at Alfredos. But I think thats just because I liked it so much. You just ate whatev.
Have you ever had a crush on me (honestly): Tim, I had a crush on you our freshman year. But I was weird, and impulsive, and for reasons I've never explored, didn't ever follow through with my feelings, and you didn't get a chance to either. But I don't regret that. I have had many exes, none of which I talk to anymore. I know that if we had dated our feelings for one another would have been very intense. We would have broken up and you wouldn't have been the best friend to me that I remember today. We wouldn't have had half as many adventures like to San Antonio... almost. or the weekend with Jon, Cindy and PJ. Or all the country drives. We wouldn't have been there for each other like when you told me something you had never told anyone, just because you needed to let it out.(that secret will always be safe with me) or when you ran into the woods looking for me because I was "lost" and when you needed a haircut, even though I did a horrible job, you kept it, helping my self esteem. Or when We had an early morning band thing and we would show up still drunk from the night before.... we were always in it together. Had we dated, we wouldn't have had such an epic friendship.
If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be: The Fabled Tim (thanks, Wagon Trail!) or Tim Trinity, as you will always be in my phone, or mr. Timnus. That will be a tattoo for Pete, Jon and me.
What's your favorite memory of me: I don't have just one favorite. But the one that comes to mind is the time when the Family thought that you and Robert were double agents so we took you to Wylie and tied you both to chairs until you told us the truth.... which reminds me of every thursday kaycee and I would stop what we were doing, run to your room and watch the OC then ruuun to a Lombardi meeting. Or all the times you would sing to all the songs playing in my car, even if you didn't know the song. Which reminds me of the time that you, me and PJ went to Dallas to see the Waiting Room, some other band, and Mates of State all in one weekend... then there were the Levi Smith shows, Emery shows, Warped Tour, Jack's Mannequinn, Death Cab and ACL.... I am pretty much surviving on memories of us nowadays.
What was my worst habit: you smacked your food sometimes. I loved you, but that drove me crazy.
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring: I agree, we would need an Ipod. and cigarettes. With those, anything else would be possible.
I am so many emotions and non-emotions (totally numb) from this week. I haven't believed my ears, I've cried myself to sleep, I haven't been able to get out of bed for a couple of days.... I saw Tim in a coffin with my own eyes, yet its still so hard to believe. Part of me is in shock, and I wake up every morning wishing it was a bad dream, only to come to this weird realization again. Tim impacted everyone he met and we all loved him so much. This was something I never thought would happen. Tim was my backup. Come 2014, if we weren't married, without prospects, we were going to get married.
I've been babbling on here... because I'm having a hard time vocalizing any of this to other people....
But the bottom line is that I lost a best friend this week. So did Kenley, KayCee, Chad, Jon, Matt, Richard, and so many others. But we're in it together. So no matter who you are, I am here if you want to talk. I can listen really well. I don't have any insight to what happened, why it happened or what is happening to him now, but I did love him just like you did. and I can be your shoulder to cry on (though I hope its okay if I cry too) or I'll spot you while you punch something or want to scream. Because we all lost Tim. We're not alone in our loss. I'm here if you need me.
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| Still the reigning best year of my life! And do we all remember what we were all doing on November five two thousand and five? We were preparing for one badass band tour! The tour of fake boyfriends!
I remember them well!
Simon and Lindsey: turned into a real relationship, thus putting them out of the running for the win, but were still cute for the time they were together!
KayCee and Tim: funniest fake couple by far! Their break up fight was a huge success. Though I still don't believe deep down that they won.
Cheyenne and Robert: Didn't even last to tour. They broke up because Cheyenne found Robert's ID in her underwear drawer. Stupid Robert! Whenever going through someone's underwear never leave the evidence! rookie mistake.
Aubrey and Byron: oh you know we were the best fake couple. We were cuddly, and cute, and charismatic! And our break up was awesome too! AND snuck away to see Death Cab for Cutie in Austin!
Dudes, think back to tour 2005. It was a seriously happy time for us all. The happiest year of college for me, by far. I was so freakin free that year! The Lombardis ruled the world. | | |
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